why is it that i'm always bothered with things that i shouldn't be? i mean, i always think that maybe she's mad/irritated because of me. pero i always believe that actions speak louder than words. i always believe in what people would say to me. but now maybe i learned not to believe them first until i can see what they wanted to say. even though hindi mo sabihin na ayaw mo sakin or what, i can see naman hindi ka comfortable na kasama ako diba? maybe you don't have to say it harap-harapan pero its just that maybe i don't know what to do and how to act 'cause i'm just being myself. kung ayaw mo sakin, nirerespeto kita. you can't please everyone. it's just that nasa iisang circle of friends tayo. i wanted to bond with each and everyone and maging close syempre, pero parang uncomfortable ka talaga pag kasama ako. and ganoon din naffeel ko pag ganoon ka din sakin. ang hirap i haven't tell anyone about this pero baka mapuno nanaman ako, hindi dahil sayo pero dahil nadadagdagan yung feeling na hindi ko nalalabas o naeexpress man lang. recently, madalas ako hindi makatulog dahil alam ko may sama ako ng loob sa iba o may dinadamdam ako. ang hirap. its hard.

sana mawala na tong nararamdaman ko...

[feeling | depressed ]