*Yes, I know it's been a while since I last posted something here. Sorry na, my sister always use our computer and I have no time din. *sigh*


Anyway, exams are over and the hell. It doesn't matter anymore if I'll suck this quarter. Oh well, I know I didn't do my best so... bye bye award. I'm not expecting anymore since I'm not that inspired to do my best. I guess it's because of the activities. I don't know. Bahala na.

Okay, so how was the test? Some are hard, some are okay but only one was easy. =)


+ World History - It was okay. Although I studied some of the topics last minute. I guess my score will just be the same, same as the two quarters. Hindi na talaga ako tataas.

+ Geometry - I really don't care about geometry anymore. And FYI, Ms. Zuela's not my favorite teacher! Whatever Bea! Though I didn't finish the last part, hindi naman ako umiyak. It's just that who cares. Ayoko nang isipin. Whatever that part is, eh di 'yun na 'yun. Bahala na si SD. =D

+ English - I thought this one will be hard. Hindi pala, it was all mutiple choice. My last minute-study helped a lot, buti nalang. I'm kinda expecting sa subject na ito.

+ Chemistry - Kailan pa naging mahirap ang TRUE OR FALSE? NGAYON LANG!!! Damn. It was the first part of the test and it was so HAAAARD. Sayang lang talaga yung 5 points. I know she'll never consider it, since she's an inconsiderate person, SOBRA.

+ Computer - I HATE THIS QUARTER. Imagine, we only met ONCE and shortened pa 'yun. Then, we also had ONE quiz which I know I failed and ONE hands-on. Musta naman iyon? Grabe. I can't imagine anong kalalabasan ng Computer this quarter. Bye 40 points. And that's 80 points by the way.

+ Social Ethics -  Some answers are found in another test so it was somewhat easy. I really just don't like the analysis part. There was a part wherein we were asked who will we save. Aba, sinagot ko nalang, both. Eh kasi... never mind. Tinatamad na ako. Nakakaantok kasi 'yung mga ganoong klaseng type of test. Sorry na.

+ THE - So... what's merit of the menu??? Akala ko, nag-iisa lang ako. Lahat pala kami. It was hard for me. I'm sorry but I would rather have the geometry exam. Oo na, hindi kasi ako masyadong nag-aral eh. Ayoko kasi talaga 'yung table services eh. Ang dami-dami.

+ Filipino - Walang kwenta ang pagkarir ko sa pagbasa ng libro. More than 10 chapters din ang binasa ko, walang lumabas na kinakailangan binasa mo yung libro. sana inaral ko nalang yung tula ni Rizal imbes na binasa 'yung libro. Sayang ang oras. Pero okay siya. Madami akong nasabi masyado.

+ Trigonometry - last but not the least. Nung nag-review kami nila Maika and Koox yesterday, iyon lang talaga 'yung nireview ko. Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, hindi na ako nag-aral. Nanuod nalanag ako ng TV. HAHA. That's why this morning, I studied the graphing thing nalang. And it was easy though I was really clueless when I answered the first part. Ngayon ngayon ko lang nagets, medyo. HIHI. =)



Oh well. It's Christmas and I don't feel like it's Christmas actually. All I want to do in this two-week break is to rest and that's it. =)

May nakita akong binata, may kasamang dalagita.
Magkahawak ang kanilang mga kamay.
Ang ngiti nila sa isa't isa ay abot tainga. 
Mga tingin nila'y malagkit.
Habang sila'y naglalakad, mukhang masayang masaya sila at tila ba'y sila lamang ang nilalang sa mundong ito.
Kung pagmamasdan mo sila, mahahalata mong sila ngang dalawa ay magkasintahan.


Ngunit... kung titignan ng mabuti, hindi talaga sila bagay.
Magkahawig yung binata at dalagita.
Tapos yung hindi pa ganoong kagandahan yung dalaga.
Ano ba iyan!
Ibig sabihin, hindi kagandahan pareho?


Mali pala. Magkapatid lang pala sila.
(Sorry na)

I know everyone wishes for things this Christmas. As for me, I have a list too.

Onti lang wish ko this Christmas, Santa. =)

> Any Nicholas Sparks book (except The Notebook)
          - Sinabi ko na ito sa favorite tita ko (best friend ni mom). Not sure kung bibilhin nga niya. Pero everytime na dadaan kasi ako ng National Bookstore, nadadaanan ko yung mga books ni Nicholas Sparks and sobrang gusto ko ng bilhin pero wala akong pera lagi.

> Scrapbook(s) (3 big ones)
          - 'Yung scrapbooks sa Carton(?), Wrapshop or Papemelroti. May gamit iyon. 'Yung dalawa para sa high school memories ko and 'yung isa para sa collection ng dad ko. =)

> Money, money and MONEH!!!
          - Siguro, okay na 'yung P6,000. Para mabawi ko 'yung mga nagastos ko this year, para sa high school memories "thing" ko ulit and 'yung iba savings. Kaya mga ninangssss, handa na kayo! HAHA. =)

> Michelle Branch's Spirit Room album (original) and Silent Santuary's second album, Mga Kwentong Pag-ibig
          - 'Yung mga songs ni Michelle Branch sa first album niya, sobrang gusto ko talaga. Itong album sobrang gusto kong bilhin pero wala pa akong nahahanap. Sa Silent Sanctuary naman, hindi pa daw lumalabas 'yung album. Pero naddownload na 'yung mga songs. Eh gusto ko na marining lahat ng tracks. Maganda kasi yung mga message ng songs nila kahit sobrang simple lang ng lyrics. HIHI.

> PROM DATE!!!
          - Actually Santa, mas maganda kung iggrant mo din wish ko, pwedeng specifically si ano nalang... WAHAHAHA! =D Or kung ayaw mong siya date ko, kahit bigyan mo lang kami ng isang labas or gala. WAHAHAHAHA =)

> Starbucks Planner
          - Hindi pa kasi ako tapos sa stickers eh. Mga 6 stickers pa na puro Christmas edition drinks. Pero pag nacomplete na iyon, sa kapatid ko mapupunta 'yung planner na iyon and pa hindi sakin. So... iyon. Long way to go pa talaga. Kasi 2 stickers palang para sa planner ko. Hay. Parang labo nun noh?

> Converse Chucks (Orange)
          - Nung pumunta ako sa Toby's, may nakita akong chucks and nagustuhan ko siya. Mga October ko pa nakita 'yun. Ewan ko lang kung mayroon pang ganoon. Anyway, sana may mabigay sakin. =D



Santa, grant them ASAP ah? Sorry for the demands.
Thanks in advance!


<3, Caren


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Iilan lang iyan sa mga gusto kong matanggap this Christmas. Eh, wala lang. Ngayon lang ako nagkahiling ng marami eh. Siguro naman kahit isa diyan may matutupad, di ba?

Oo nga pala, kahit hindi na naka-wrap pwede na sakin. ;)

Finally, I have new layout na. Thanks to sis na nagkaroon na rin ng time to fix this. Yey. Ayaw kasi ako turuan eh. HIHI. =) Sabi ko kasi, rainbow. Ako pa! So iyan. Ang saya, at least ngayon hindi mawawala sa uso kasi hindi na character. =)

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Anyway, nung saturday hanggang Christmas, nasa bahay ako ng mga cousins ko. Grabe, pag gising ko nung saturday, parang pusa ako na tinataboy ng dad ko. Parang gusto na nga akong palayasin eh. Oh well, had a great time at their house. Since my tito and tita went to the States, sobrang free na free sila. Ang funny nga eh. We watched Princess Hours sa DVD. Natapos namin! 24 episodes=24 hours! Pero napanuod ko lang yung first 7 episodes nung thursday (with them also) and yung last 5 episodes nung saturday. Oh diba? Musta naman iyon? Buti nga naintindihan ko pa. HAHA. =) Pero nanghihinayang nga ako kasi yung pinakamagandang part, WALANG SUBTITLES!!! Darn. Kahit pinapalitan namin after namin nakita yun, walang silbi din. It's the same! Kainis!

Nung Christmas, umuwi na din ako. My cousins had lunch here at home and we all went to Rockwell to watch a movie. Siyempre, Filmfest eh. We wanted to watch Mano Po 5 sana, kaso wala. Kainis! So instead, we watched Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo. While watching, nakita ko sa cast si Ms. Dimayuga! Cool! =) Isang scene nga lang siya nagkaline eh. Siya yung wife ng brother ni Angie (Judy Ann).

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I got the Starbucks planner! =) I got it nung sunday when we went to Glorietta. Fun! =) Dapat kasi ibibigay ko sa sister ko, pero alam kong hindi niya mapagtiyatiyagaan iyon. So ngayon, meron na din siyang ibang planner. =)

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Btw, belated Merry Christmas to everyone! =)

decemberseven. marian celebration. super tiring pero nawala yung pagod ko nung bigla ko siyang nakita. uhhh! i was so happy, so alam mo pala kung saan ako dumadaan pag papunta na akong bus ha. bakit kaya. haha. saya, super hindi ko ineexpect! surprise! :)

decembersixteen. sobrang nadissapoint ako ng araw na ito. well, he was not texting me. totally. walang paramdam. i was so curious. opo, alam kong masama magexpect. karma. i thought he was going to give me super grabeng gift. ohwell. kala ko magpapakita siya sa school. di pala. kala ko may pabibigay siya kay poly. di pala. at akala ko yung sign mangyayari, di pala. haaaaay. im sooooooo sad. ewan. happy anniversary to myself.

"may hangover ako di dahil sa uminom ako, dahil sa mga taong uminom."

decemberseventeen. hm, ang weird. i've never seen them like that before. maybe siguro dahil di ako pala-attend ng mga parties kaya ganun. pero mygosh. ewan. i can't explain what i'm feeling that time but i can explain everything that happened. wala lang. ang dami kong reactions and opinions. well, siguro ok lang na ganun pero of course, friends ko kayo. i just can't let you guys get drunk all the way. diba? pero masaya ako kasi ginawan niya ako ng song. it was sooooooooo sweet. even though one week lang niya ginawa yun, ang ganda :) ang sweet kasi siya gumawa ng lyrics, ng tune.. nice :) kaysa naman yung akin. oo na, olats na po. pero na-dejavu ako on the way to sara's house. si guy and si girl asa likod ko tapos magkatabi kami ni kim. tapos paglingon ko yun mismo. basta wala lang. ang difference lang iba yung guy. how come? well anyway, naisip ko lang. hayy.

ahhhh! ang fucker talaga. bakit nagkasakit pa kasi eh. damn it. i hate it. raaaar. may papass pa naman akong project bukas. hindi pa tapos. damn. ewan. i want to give up na. ang hirap sobra. hindi ko akalain na aabot ako sa ganito. promise. ganito pala kahirap. crap. anyway. wala pa akong masimulan kasi asa school pa ako. haaay. sobrang naiiyak na ako 'cause it really hurts. damn. anyway. im gonna cram again. darn. bakit kasi iniwan ako ng bus eh. putik talaga. hate it. anyway. un lang.

sorry mia.

thanks kathy and claret and everyone. :)

just read cat's blog. well, sa totoo lang, i too miss wanayn. i love them sooooo much. super. they're really the best. sila naging inspiration ko the whole year. our room really had a strong bond. super close talaga. i miss them supeeeeer. god. anyway, i'm doing a lot of things over the net. hm, i'm fixing my photos in photobucket, i'm browsing through my old entries dun sa first blog ko. weird nga eh. know why? 'cause i wanted to comment on what i wrote last year, last december.

"i hope ndi tlga ako mgkamali ngyn. sana din ndi mlakas ang hangover ko dis tym. i dont wana go through another 3years kng gnun lan... *hai* nwei. bsta i can say na sobrang ansaya ko ngyn!! and maybe no one can stop me from being happy. sana gnto na ako forever. hai.eion. i just can't explain pa c0s sobrang dami pang iniicp c0s feeling ko ndi cia sure and mei hangover pa cia. mtgal ng ntpos un akin. but then cia tlga inaalala koh. wala pang one month.. mahal na mahal nia ung taong un.. kht ba sbhn ntn na wala na cla.. am i sure na wala na tlga ung feeling na un?? ndi. i still doubt it.. hai.. pro naniniwala naman ako sknea eh.. pro sna ndi na ako mgng tanga ds tym.. sobrah.. sana lan tlga.. " well, right now, i've realized na hindi ko pinagsisisihan yung decision na nagawa ko. i think what i did is right. 'cause right now, i'm still happy. he's still there. he still loves me and our relationship is going strong. well, even though she wanted to go back in my life, still i know that choosing him would be the right decision. i don't know why but everytime i see her, super parang feeling ko babalik ang nakaraan in an instant. but now i know na kahit anong mangyari, hindi na pwede. hindi ko na kakayanin yung pain, alam kong hindi na siya worth it. my friends would always say before na i deserve someone better. i know that he is deserving. only he can return back the love i've given him because she didn't do anything when i've loved her for three years. ngayon lang niya susuklian yung nararamdaman ko pero nung sa three years na yun, wala man lang siyang ginawa. ngayon, ako na magsasabi sayo, it's better to have love and lost than never to have been loved at all. diba? sana, hindi ka naging unfair. i gave you everything but you didn't do anything. hindi mo na ako minahal ulit. i loved you before but you didn't do anything. sayang lang. on my part, i know dapat hindi na ako nag-expect but you said you still feel the same way, i know you still feel the same way pero may mahal ka rin iba eh. pero, i know you deserve someone better. ganoon naman palagi eh. well, i've learned my lesson. i'm not mad at her dahil sa three years na yun, i've learned a lot of things. lalo na yung mahalin lalo yung sarili ko, maging patient, at makuntento sa kung ano ang meron ako. thanks talaga. baliw man ako dati sa pagmamahal sayo, ngayon i've learned to give my love to someone i know who really deserves it. talking about love. pag love talaga, masyado akong maraming sinasabi. promise. hayyy. ngayon ko lang nalabas to. it's been a year ng natutunan ko siyang ilet-go. waw. can't believe it. ngayon ko lang narealize un. grabe. recently, naconfused ako, pero naliwanagan din ako when i saw him again. i'm glad never niya akong iniwan nung sobrang down ako. dahil dati,  when i was down she left me 'cause she was scared. hay. ayaw ko na. baka sabihin niya masyado ko nanaman siyang pinagdidiinan. fine. hay. basta.

i'm sooooooo contented with my life right now.

Prom update:


I still have no date yet... Argh! >:S


Darn. I think it will be quite impossible to have swimmer as my date. Sayang naman. Mukhang di maggrant yung isang christmas wish ko. Haaaay. I didn't know it would be that hard to find a date for prom. Ngayon ko lang na-realize.

Sayang talaga. Siya lang kasi naiisip kong maging date eh. I know my barkada will easily get along with him and for sure, they'll like him. Ang gentleman naman kasi niya. Super good boy talaga. Though it will be quite hard to have him as my date, i still wish na sana maging date ko siya (oh please Lord, sana po).

If ever, (and i think most probably will happen na sana hindi naman) kung hindi talaga siya pwede na maging date ko, sana si guy-in-my-dreams nalang--kung makikilala ko nga siya (which I really doubt).

[feeling | hopeful ]