just read cat's blog. well, sa totoo lang, i too miss wanayn. i love them sooooo much. super. they're really the best. sila naging inspiration ko the whole year. our room really had a strong bond. super close talaga. i miss them supeeeeer. god. anyway, i'm doing a lot of things over the net. hm, i'm fixing my photos in photobucket, i'm browsing through my old entries dun sa first blog ko. weird nga eh. know why? 'cause i wanted to comment on what i wrote last year, last december.

"i hope ndi tlga ako mgkamali ngyn. sana din ndi mlakas ang hangover ko dis tym. i dont wana go through another 3years kng gnun lan... *hai* nwei. bsta i can say na sobrang ansaya ko ngyn!! and maybe no one can stop me from being happy. sana gnto na ako forever. hai.eion. i just can't explain pa c0s sobrang dami pang iniicp c0s feeling ko ndi cia sure and mei hangover pa cia. mtgal ng ntpos un akin. but then cia tlga inaalala koh. wala pang one month.. mahal na mahal nia ung taong un.. kht ba sbhn ntn na wala na cla.. am i sure na wala na tlga ung feeling na un?? ndi. i still doubt it.. hai.. pro naniniwala naman ako sknea eh.. pro sna ndi na ako mgng tanga ds tym.. sobrah.. sana lan tlga.. " well, right now, i've realized na hindi ko pinagsisisihan yung decision na nagawa ko. i think what i did is right. 'cause right now, i'm still happy. he's still there. he still loves me and our relationship is going strong. well, even though she wanted to go back in my life, still i know that choosing him would be the right decision. i don't know why but everytime i see her, super parang feeling ko babalik ang nakaraan in an instant. but now i know na kahit anong mangyari, hindi na pwede. hindi ko na kakayanin yung pain, alam kong hindi na siya worth it. my friends would always say before na i deserve someone better. i know that he is deserving. only he can return back the love i've given him because she didn't do anything when i've loved her for three years. ngayon lang niya susuklian yung nararamdaman ko pero nung sa three years na yun, wala man lang siyang ginawa. ngayon, ako na magsasabi sayo, it's better to have love and lost than never to have been loved at all. diba? sana, hindi ka naging unfair. i gave you everything but you didn't do anything. hindi mo na ako minahal ulit. i loved you before but you didn't do anything. sayang lang. on my part, i know dapat hindi na ako nag-expect but you said you still feel the same way, i know you still feel the same way pero may mahal ka rin iba eh. pero, i know you deserve someone better. ganoon naman palagi eh. well, i've learned my lesson. i'm not mad at her dahil sa three years na yun, i've learned a lot of things. lalo na yung mahalin lalo yung sarili ko, maging patient, at makuntento sa kung ano ang meron ako. thanks talaga. baliw man ako dati sa pagmamahal sayo, ngayon i've learned to give my love to someone i know who really deserves it. talking about love. pag love talaga, masyado akong maraming sinasabi. promise. hayyy. ngayon ko lang nalabas to. it's been a year ng natutunan ko siyang ilet-go. waw. can't believe it. ngayon ko lang narealize un. grabe. recently, naconfused ako, pero naliwanagan din ako when i saw him again. i'm glad never niya akong iniwan nung sobrang down ako. dahil dati,  when i was down she left me 'cause she was scared. hay. ayaw ko na. baka sabihin niya masyado ko nanaman siyang pinagdidiinan. fine. hay. basta.

i'm sooooooo contented with my life right now.