I thought yesterday's get together will really be a fun one, but I'm wrong. There was a moment when I felt that I really want to go home, as in dahil sa sobrang bad trip. Nainis talaga ako.

Most of the time, when I'm mad or naiinis I really show it. Hindi kasi ako plastic, hindi ko kayang itago. Kaya madalas, pag pinipigilan ko ang sarili kong magalit, hindi ko kaya kasi halata naman lagi. Sabi nga nila, parang daw ako papatay ng tao.

This week was definitely not a good one--SOBRA. Well, parang hatest week of the whole school year, I guess? Damn. I guess everything started nung tuesday. Monday kasi happy pa ako kahit papaano eh. Pero that thing nung tuesday sobrang nakakadown. From that day until yesterday sobrang wala na. Totally bad days talaga.

Oo, maraming days na nafeel ko ng alone ako, pero heto na talaga yung isa mga malala kasi alone talaga ako eh. Yung feeling ba na gusto kong magwalk-out sa mundong kinatatayuan ko ngayon. 'Yun yung feeling eh. Ganoon ka-lala.

I knew I've always been alone and it always hurt whenever they let me feel I'm really alone. Although, I'm not saying na the whole time sobrang feeling ko ang loner ko. Hmm, most of the time lang naman. I guess 'yung minutes na binigay niyo para kausapin ako, napasaya naman ako kahit onti. Salamat na rin doon.

Now, I'm not looking forward for prom anymore. I'm not excited about wearing that beautiful dress. Parang wala ng saysay. Lalo na kung 'yun palang binabali wala ka na, paano pag prom na? Tsss. Walang kwenta rin ang prom kung ganoon. Magsarili nalang kaya?

Sobrang pissed lang talaga.