What a day. Really.

I went to school early and what do I get? Dissapointment. Wow. Amazing. How nice. I really hate it. Everything started out wrong talaga. Kaya ayan, sunod-sunod na. I woke up 5 AM when I should wake up at 4 because of my CL homework. My dad didn't wake me up. Damn. I did my HW, finished around 5:35, took a bath and went to school right away because Bea said we need to be in school at 6:15 AM. I didn't even eat my breakfast (that's a first).

Anyway, I was second to come in class and another dissapointment started. This time it's about the prom. Oh yeah. You know what, ayoko na mag-prom. Kung hindi lang ako nanghihinayang sa pera na binayad ko sa prom, matagal na akong nag-back out sobra. Kainis. HATE YOU (kung sino man siya, at kung mayroon man).

After that prom dissapointment, may sumunod pa. Oo, may sumunod pa roon. Hindi ko na kinaya 'yung sumunod. Wala naman akong matakbuhan. Nag-chapel ako. Parang ayoko na ngang umalis doon eh. Totoo.

First subject, English and we had to do the Beuwolf play. Then Geom, had 2 quizzes and it went out well. Then CL, bigla nanaman akong nagbreak-down. "What makes you sad?"...THEM. Oo, sinabi ko talaga. Malay ba ni sir kung sino sila. Haha. Gumawa kasi kami ng essay about handling emotions. Last subject, Chem, sumakit lang ulo ko sa Chem Equations kasi medyo nahirapan ako. Seryoso. Promise. Naku, baka siguro dahil may problema lang ako. Masyadong pre-occupied. Hindi maka-concentrate. Ewan, Labo pala.

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Madalas, hindi ko nalang pinapansin kung ano mang problema mayroon ako. Mas lalo akong nadedepressed kapag ganoon. Pinipilit nalang maging masaya, hindi na kasi ako marunong ngumiti eh. Sana naman tinutulungan niyo ako. Sana lang. Pero salamat na rin kahit hindi.