happy kanina, even though we had practice in the middle of the day for the sportsfest. but then, just now, i suddenly became sad. i remembered my super duper close friends before. one of them is chatting with me right now. she was telling me na we're all not that close anymore. we barely talk and call each other. we weren't giving efforts to work our friendship. we were all busy doing something else. i just remembered before, when i was in grade 7, they were the people who were always there for me, kasi during that year, wala talaga akong friend. i was always a loner. until i met them, super nabuhay ako and felt really happy. but then when one of them, needs to leave for states and the other one needs to transfer to another school. so two of us were left and that following year, we weren't that close. but we would give letters to each other and all. but of course, the year ended so fast, she graduated. now, wala. nothing's happening;among the four of us. the other night, i dreamt about my other friend, the one who went to states. i was so excited when i saw her. i was so delighted. maybe that's why when i knew that my friend who graduated went to school, i was excited but then she thought i wasn't glad when i saw her. sayang. now, wala. puro drama. di ko naman maexpress lahat ng gusto kong sabihin, i don't know why. sayang. well, it's just that i miss my haw friends.

i miss val, tischa and trisha. i really miss you guys.

i'm really sorry. ='(

guess where am i right now? well, i'm in baguio. yah. as in. weird no? actually, i should be watching a movie right now, but then, nagback-out ako. i don't feel like watching. actually, i shouldn't be here right now. promise. before i went here with my cousins, i was thinking if i should still go here. i told my mom and she said don't go if i don't feel like going anymore and tell dad. but when i asked my dad, "what if i won't come anymore?" he got mad. he said, i couldn't go back now, they already bought the tickets for the bus. ok. fine. never mind. i went kahit napilitan lang ako. on the way to the bus station going to baguio, we rode a bus. and guess what bus? a non-air conditioned bus. my god. i couldn't imagine myself riding in that kind of bus. my mom always say that i should ride air conditioned bus and now, suuuuper napilitan na ako. grabe, feeling ko, may phobia na ako sa mga bus dahil sa experience na un. actually, i don't hate my tito for letting us all ride that bus but then, if my parents nga never ride in that kind of bus, tapos sa side ng family ng tita ko, nakasakay ako. my gosh. when we came here in baguio, after the seven-hours-and-fifteen-minute trip, we headed for the place we're staying right now. i really can't mention where it is kasi suuuper nakakahiya lang talaga. when we came to that place, i was really annoyed 'cause the room isn't nice, the place isn't soundproof, and everything about the room, i really hate it. anyway, when i saw the room, i already thought that i wouldn't be able to sleep on that night, but thank god, i was able to sleep for 8hours, yeah! but it should've been longer, but because of that nasty dog who kept barking the last minutes of my sleep and the rooster na kala mo tama ang tilaok 'yun pala "sintonado". haha. hai.  well, i bought some things for someone and for everyone. i bought him card and anklets. (ok lang sabihin ko, 'di naman nea makikita eh) anyway, i bought eloi the earings that she wanted. i bought 2 bags na gusto ni nina and keith. i bought ube, strawerry jam, lengua, peanut brittle, and crinkles for my sister (dami talagang bilin) and later baka bilan ko pa siya ng new cd, god! pa special. hm, bought bracelet for clara and maika and ja. yun. i hope umuwi na kami tomorrow, i really miss everyone lalo na siya. aaaargh. god, i remembered my grades. we left kasi around 8 am, and around that time, my parents got my card in school. then, before my sister told me 'bout it, suuuuper kinakabahan na ako. i have this feeling na i have a line of 7 sa card, which i never had in my high school life and never plan to have. and bio pa yung feeling ko, ohmygod! when my sister told me na my parents can't talk to sir soon kasi i got 88 daw! wuhoo! my sister wanted to hear how he speaks if its really like gay or something. haha. anyway, so yun. she caught a glimpse on someone. sino kaya yun? sakto eh. hindi siya pumasok ng ust. tsk, tsk, tsk. but everyone was looking at her, hahaha. wawa ka naman. joke lang. basta, i can't believe na kahit feeling ko suuuuper bababa lahat ng grades ko, still my average went up. super. unti2. good thing. that's ok. heeehee. ok, sooooo right now, i'm alone using the computer. how come? it's only 1 in the afternoon. weird. alam niyo ba may funny thing about this keyboard. diba it has a } and ] sign? when you press it, it will either show ' or " sign. o diba weird. same as the ' and " sign. when you press that key, it would show } and ] sign. grabe. fake ba to o pangpalito lang talaga? ayus noh? weirdo. heehee. halatang walang magawa. osige na. magbebehave na ako. may gwapong guy eh. hotness in baguio? tsssss. don't worry, when i get home, i'll put all the pictures i had here kahit onti lang yung kasama ako. wuhuuuuu.

hayyyy, im so glad today. well, kinda kainis lang yung english report namin. 'cause we should be having our report sa english. but unfortunately, naubusan kami ng time! hate it. suuuper ganda ng report namin. promise! gustong-gusto ko yung starting ng report namin eh. pero, ok, i think we really have to accept na friday pa talaga. raaar. yuck, anyway. i want to go home na right now, as in. hehe. never mind. i'm still in school right now and guess what station am i in right now? station 16. ok. sadya? don't think so. weh? pakipot. raaar. yun, well, my friends said that this will be the last month na they'll greet me na "monthsary" faaaaayn. sige na, oo na, anniversary na next month. well, i'm kinda expecting. ambad ko talaga. hindi naman nya makikita ulit eh, he'll never see this again. 'cause i know he has no time and hindi na niya to naaalala for sure. anyway, i hope na super sweet yung mangyayari dun. and that ewan. haaay, basta masaya na ako. wala naman talaga kasi akong iba pang gustong hilingin eh. i'm contented right now. (hmm, i think) anyway, gusto ko lang ishare na sobrang bentang-benta si sir velarde kahapon. raaaar. suuuuuuuuuuuuuper. hay, anyway, yun sana masaya talaga ako ngayon. anyway, sige uwi na ako. weeeee.

well, i wasn't expecting to have this kind of new year. promise. what we had kanina was really different. hindi siya yung ineexpect ko. maybe siguro nanghinayang na din ako dahil nung christmas eve hindi man lang kami kumain ng sabay-sabay. hayyy. i don't know. naiinggit nga ako sa family ng best friend ko kasi nagfireworks sila and lahat sila talagang parang nagcecelebrate and nagpaparty as a family. samantalang kami, ni isang paputok wala. darn. ang ganda ng simula ng new year ko ah. nice one. i expected a lot this time dahil last year ang saya ng christmas and new year. pero ngayon, i don't know. seems like its not new year, yung tipong wala lang ordinary day. waaaw. ayun.

happy new year sa sarili ko.
kahit hindi naman talaga masaya.

siguro nga. i thought this time makukuha na namin sa wakas. pero hindi eh, sayang. ok lang, at least kahit for the last time naprove ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko naman. nagawan ko ng paraan kahit medyo huli nga lang. whew. tapos na. pero mygod, kung dati super pressured dahil sa varsity, ngayon? pressured sa school. hindi ako pressured sa florante pero i'm pressured in our asian history campaign. promise. i don't know why. darn. hindi lang talaga ganun kadali na magbalance ng mga bagay-bagay. haaay. well, i hope makayanan namin 'toh and ako of course. pati nga 'yung journ din unti-unti ko ng naffeel. waaaw. lahat ng hula ko this school year are about to happen. yes. grabe, good thing about today? may nablock kahit sablay and maganda play ko. wawee. and nakita ko siya today kahit sobrang bad ko sa kanya. haaay.

thank you Lord today.
huhu. :(