I'm on my last day of 2021 and how should be reflect on the past year? There's Covid, trying to cope with Covid and another Covid mutation happening (again). Got myself double jabbed and yet the pose of threat is still there despite all our efforts to fight this pandemic. 

But to be honest, there is a lot to be thankful this year. Although I'm 31 but with lots of internal pressure of upgrading to next life stage/chapter. But just like I said, it's all in the mind. My parents aren't actually pressuring me, I guess this is just all me trying to keep up on where I should be at this present. Honestly, I just can't help it. There is no one to blame but me. I think I should just be less harsh on myself. More on the patience and not pushing too much on things forward.

The past few days of covid scare has literally changed me and people around me. If they end up choosing not to talk to me anymore because of the panic I had, then that's it. We can't control anyone but we can always control how we will react to things. I just hope that friend of mine will still be there when he gets better because I was so blinded by these repulsive desires that I had over unfinished business but in reality I knew it was heading nowhere and will just create more confusion for everyone (pertaining to my feelings to Smasher). 

What should I be focusing more on this year? (I wouldn't want this to be a resolution per se but more on things to be hopeful for the coming year)
1. Save HARDER. Invest more. 
2. Spend time with family and people who really matters.
3. Write more. Save more memories in a more organized way. Keepsakes. 


I look forward to 2022 with growth, learning the 30s life lessons. 

There is so many things to say but time to go on my legit last shift of the year, bank shift!