Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. (He's Just Not That Into You, 2009)

Haydee and I were already walking in Gateway when were talked about the Shiz guy. No matter what angle I look at, it'll never happen. Do I have to enumerate? :)) Anyway, so I told her, "eh gusto ko kasi matalino eh." Then she said, "eh siya matalino (we both know who :|). Alam mo hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit hindi na kayo eh sobrang bagay pa naman kayo. Kung siguro kayo pa rin hanggang ngayon, okay kayo."  :|:|:| Grabe, alam mo yung paasa? :| Hearing that from a girl who's already the ex of my ex-boyfriend. The girl who came after me. C'moooon. That's the least thing you would ever want to hear from an ex of your ex-boyfriend. :|:|:| 

You know what, I really wanna hold on to what you said Haydee but I really know it cannot be. It isn't possible. :( I think about it whenever I see him, which I guess is always? I love the thought of it but it is killing me 'cause I know it will never be. :( 

Thanks but no thanks. It's just like I'm planning my slow death if I continue to wait for that day. Ugh. I'm making things hard for myself again. :( 

How I wish things can be back to how we used to be. :( I really miss it and I'm tired of missing it. GAH. :( I'm tired of waiting for something that will never happen again. 

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought -- useless and disappointing. :|  (Cinderella Story, 2004)

Tell them I was happy
and my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible 

Falling out of love is hard